TWISTED LOVE: Berlin Reports

Hitsujiga's Berlin Report

i wish it would have lasted enternally ~.~ Pt.1

- THE DIR EVENT IN..like..well...SHORT?! XDDD... - ok i try to gain some of the stuff i was going through yesterday:

we stood up early to get first row XD (first joke). then we did this and that, you know...got ready. and it was about time, and the make-up was completely fkkd up, FINALly we made it at 4 pm and went to columbia hall. at the train station there were some *visus* like we call them here, and the whole way to the hall there were more and more of them. then we sat down where the sun was not _THIS_ hot and waited till eternity. some poor souls had really ugly stuff on, but there were others who looked absolutely great. and then these goth-kids...=.=; i mean their clothes were great but for me it didn't fit...to..diru.

some brought their whole family *lol*..mostly those kids who were like..14 or so. poor parents. and there were some japanese people,..let's say..a bunch of them,..like 10,20-ish? (i don't know exactly, but there was this one japanese guy who is studying together with us,..I KNEW he was a fan of jrock, with all...his black nail polish on and the blonde dyed hair and all the clothes stuff..he's not very beautiful but ...he looks ok. ah, and there was this girl from my artshistory courses...she bought a douji once from my friend, and i didn't recognize that fast enough,..nya..i saw her on the other side of the road. i also knew that she was into jrock, ....i'm shy and all, and don't talk to the people from my artshistory class, but you can see it on their faces, that they're into jrock or manga/anime.)

[EDIT: oh and we saw some nice cosplayers too, esp. kyo ones...and what i totally forgot was: we heard diru doing their soundcheck, when we sat outside. we were like: "uhmm, they're playing inside. at least we know that they're there and don't cancel the gig." yay! xD i tried to look if they were spying on the fans somewhere, but didn't see anything. some girls now said they have seen dai, making photos of the fans,....yesyes..<.<]

shortly after we stood in a row, like right side.....and all the people screamed *o-pen,o-pen,o-pen!* because it was 7 pm already. a little while and doors were opened, it was really fast, considering the masses. they had opened 2(!) doors (they recognized FINALly that it's helpful...i so freaked out at d'espairs ray.). some people already broke down because of heat, poor things...there were A LOT of ambulances out there (as we could see after the gig). when we were in, we bought a belt and stickers (man, why is it this expensive?). ou man, i wanted to have belt and wristbands, but they were all damn ugly and i couldn't afford the two of them =__= .

it was like,...not the french flag, but the other country with this colors...red stripe, white stripe, blue stripe.....the belt was the same colors but it looked better than the wristbands, so i took it. had to put the stuff all in my pants' pockets (looked like a thief with full pockets XD)...because we had given away our bag already.....and the stickers look like shit now 'cuz i had put it between my pants and back ;_;.

i hope the belt fits (i think it could be japanese size, and if it's too short i have to loose weight, ya know xD~). then we sat down (the security always forced us to sit down? i don't know why that was..). it was right to the technician-stuff in the middle of the hall and we thought of going to both sides to come further in front...but then we stayed there. suddenly all kids went up and were heading to the stage,...first we heard something like getting the smaller persons in front rows (second joke -_- it could have been sooo good for me...) but then we found out they were filming in front row *drop*.

after that they forced us to go back, because people broke down like flies in first row, the people behind pushed them too hard,...( it so reminded me of the boyband - thingie,..i mean, i knew it would be like that,...I WAS LIKE THAT...but i didn't like the idea of it =..=). but because of that we had the chance to get like more..stage-ish x3~ (i'm really sorry for the fans who couldn't see anything of the concert...i hope there were not to much of them,..but it looked like..).

then they made their announcements in german, english, french and japanese (and told the japanese in addition, that it's not like in japan and all...blah)...and all the fans freaked out when hearing the name diru and that it will start soon (mostly when it was said in german,...with french and english it was like..there were not too many fans..and also the japanese were not this much). this was hilarious (ok i'm not into stagediving/crowdsurfing....but..).... the greatest joke of the evening was, that *german!* mobile phones interfere with japanese instruments/technical stuff. hahahaaaa! i wanted to laugh, but i couldn't...! they only wanted the fans to switch off their phones, so not to make pictures with their picture phones.....this was too obvious, man. it was really hilarious...

(and did he just say *german handys* ? xD probably no one understood the german term for mobile phone *lol*...)... and...it could have also been possible that ...french mobile phones or english/american mobile phones interfered with the instruments?....but noooooo, only german ones! (jokeeee, yay...y,y.....). i'm sure the people from other countries took photos with their phones ;____;....that's not fair.... (also i heard from my friend, that a girl had passed the security with her camera, just because they only looked into the *main bag* and she had put it like...in a little hidden pocket inside her bag....unfair...;_;).

then they let us wait..for another 30 minutes...(it should have started at 20.30 but actually it was like...21.00-ish..-ishishish xD). and then..it...STARTED! *______________________* and i......couldn't see anything =..=! i stood there together with my friend, like in the middle, in front of kyo...and sometimes i could see a bit..of..like..kyo..shinya...and dai....sometimes toto or kao,...but not too much. so i decided to dance and all that, what you are supposed to do at a concert. then i lost my friend at one moment (we said beforehand that we would part and watch toto and dai seperately...). so i pushed harder in front and was like: wow nice concert! x3~...

and i was really surprised: the whole weeks before i was like: OMG!!!!!! and now..like the whole day only..YAY! xD....this was strange, and i was like:...oh ..that is diru there on stage,...cool band!...i can see them,..they look exactly like on dvd... - it was a bit unrealistic ,i admit it...but at the same time so real...and so..normal? no, not normal but...nya i had fun and all,..but it was not like: OMG, THERE THEY ARE, I AM GOING TO DIIIEEEE!...

i was really shocked about my reactions,..i really thought my heart would beat like _THIS HARD_...but it *only* beated a bit faster and i was not like *wakuwaku*....just like..*GRIIIIIIN*....really weirdo! my friend told me it was the same with her..(and i thought she would be like: OMG! TOTOOOO, marry meeee! XDDDD but she was too cool for my taste,....all the weeks we knew, diru would come...she was like: i can't believe it BUT...it's..yeah..they're coming... - LIKE THIS COOL! i couldn't realize a thing and she was like..doing her everyday life..she also was a bit shocked about it..xD).

so i partied and all (and hoped my friend wouldn't break down..but she is tough when it gets hard,..only when deftones played there, she was x____X dizzy...). diru was not this excessive and all..they just played their songs (all new album, some vulgar and two or three from six ugly - like i expected v.v...i only remember six ugly's *newsman* and *byoshin* and...was there *umbrella*? OMG i forgot!!!! ;___; this is the song i love so much..hm..i don't think they played it..i don't remember singing the "hey miss girl is very fond of child" - part so..yeah....

i can't memorize those titles from vulgar and WTD. ..except the singles and good songs,..so search for the setlist in the net, please! ........some songs even sounded the same in the beginning..i thought: oh didn't we have that a while ago? xD..not good, like my friend said...).....
they just played and played..really hard and good though but not even big posing in the beginning. ....the music was good and the sound (although i had put ear plugs in my ears to not become deaf like at d'espairs...it was like...i heard kyo very good but the music was like...all very quiet and smooth and not *RAAAWWWWWWWR!* .....so i took the things out for a while...only on one ear and then the music and the fans were like *RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRR!*...*lol*..... and i couldn't hear kyo good enough...so i switched: things on - things off ...mostly i took it off when it was those headbang parts and mosh parts...(just the wrong way for my ears...^^) .....because when the sound is this quiet when you want to headbang it's like..very lame..xD.....aaaaand THEEEEEEN:

T_____________________________T!...i could catch a little bit of dai and just in this very special moment he was....;____; .....SMILING ALL OVER HIS FACE! in the dircetion of the fans on kyos side..or to kyo himself..i couldn't locate that. IT SO SAVED MY DAY! ;.;
i thought, even if i have to stay here in 20something-row and not see anything of the gig,..i will always remember THIS BEAUTIFUL AND VERY TRUE SMILE OF HIM! ~,____,~
and i will always remember a good concert of good old diru in good old germany (because it pisses me off when i don't see a thing and all..and then i only remember the bad parts of the concerts). so in the beginning they not seemed so interested in pushing the fans...it was not boring, because we fans all freaked out, it was fun... but diru was like...playing one of their..*normal-mainstream-gigs* and not like a-knot ones or gigs in smaller venues...."yeah just play the songs and then..it's ok for the fans and for the money they payed us".
kyo of course was very ambitious all the time. but in the beginning it was not this fully freaked out like one would expect. i didn't see much but heard from my friend, what i only had seen in little moments: kao and toto were just standing there, looking cool and doing nothing...*cough*.
shin was like..yeah like always, very...controlled and all and seemd a little bit dreamy like the *did i turn off the gas?* - thing xD...(awww and he had on a nice...shirt/blouse(?)....it looked so good on him *___* and his hair was funny x3~). ya kao and toto: boooh! (no ;_; you really played good..all of you..and even dai didn't mess up solos or so...and you looked cool and all..but..a bit more action next time, kay?)... ....once kao and toto stood together at the front of the stage, like:...one meter between them,..that was all.....(from my perspective, ne?).

dai had on this leather jacket (in blue light it looked like a training outfit....heeee ?.?....)...aww i couldn't see his pants and shoes! ;___; (-> shoe addict ._.)....- kyo had on...hm..the first outfit i couldn't see anything of or i don't remember anymore...second was the leo-jacket opened....then nothing...(only upper part, ne...) and then a t-shirt?..i don't know which one....-dai changed to...hm the second one i think was also the jacket, but then the despair of the fault thing-shirt(?) and then the tourshirt (it was really ugly <.<...with these two skeleton men...and the men-shirt-type..like _SO_ big!.....i didn't buy it,..had no money either :D).
kao had on a suit..(i was told so, i only could see something shiny on a white jacket he had on...)...and then probably also tourshirt. toto had on (awww, he also hided his pissed off/cool(?) face behind his long curly curls,..like dai behind his..necklong(?)...red hair ^^..i think it disturbed me a bit because they both looked like: no i don't want to be a star who everybody can look at like they wish; but it was cute at the same time x3~)..
where was i?..ah, toto had on black leather pants, and the moments i saw him, he had something like an openend black vest over his....hot but..for my taste..too much worked out..abs...(but he looked sexy anyway *_*)....that whore *laugh*! shin also changed, but i could only see his white shirt/blouse.

and ...yes...uhm...i went in front, of course. ^-^ first i was like middle,..in front of kyo....then i more and more drifted (naturally,..like..aww |D) away to dai's side. i was like 15th..10th row (and i thought i was 'close'..*drop*...)...and i now could see more and more of him: looking cool and rocking da house! x3~~~~...he was always staring on the floor or on the right side a bit pissed/cool/whatever or he simply turned around showing us his nice back...*cough* nya anyways, the wind coming from somewhere down the stage... - it blew his nicely shining red hair away and his beautiful face was set free so that he couldn't hide anymore *____*. aww he was sooooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful! not much make-up..just the eyes..but not too dark. you know that look well ^.^v

diru got better more and more. kyo beating and scratching himself, puking blood (but only a bit as far as i could see XD). sometimes (one or two times? ;_;) i could see kao and toto posing,..shinya was also little seen...but i studied his facial expression whenever i could catch a bit of him *_*. but for me kyo and dai were gorgeous. i wouldn't say they were better than normal...but for me they were the highlights,.... i mean, dai was like always,...not very much doing and only bending nearly till the ground and rocking or looking cool above the audiences heads.

he didn't fail at holding his guitar, nor was he *really* pissed or lying on the floor playing his guitar - just a normal gig as i said,..but i would have loved to see some of the above, just to know what phase he is in at the moment. it all seemed very distant, studied, controlled and predictable to me.

[EDIT: ok now that i read some of the reports on berlin gig, i happen to know that dai fell and was playing lying on the ground *lol*..I'd loved to see that....and kyo was like,..in the end..putting a bucket of water over himself and was shaking his head to get off the water like a poodle and then threw this thing into audience..and fans bitching about his towel and ripping it into pieces....and toto coming in front...and then a heavy sound and his bass fell down *blang* XD.....(have i been this deaf?)..and the fans that waited there since 12oclock...they have seen the dirus coming out of their car and filming the fans, and the filmteam asking them where they are from..and later dai coming out and making pictures of the fans..;_____________;..(why didn't i cut the make-up thing and straight went to columbia hall?!!!! why! it was running off either..from sweat,..it was sooo unnecessary! *depressed now*..i so wanted to see them in casual/street style/reallife T___T..)...and of course kyo/or kao(?) babbling some german like "wie gehts byebye" or "dankeschon"...i don't know <.<....i knew there was something and i totally freak out now, because i can't remember this much ;_;......i have to see them in france i think..oh man i have no money x.x...]

then between some songs they shortly stopped to get the broken down (ha! the word is *fainted* XD) girls out of the crowd or give some water to them. but after six songs or so...they made a full stop and paused for..like 15 minutes to get hold of the situation...and the announcer always told us to go back because of the girls breaking down,...told us to get some fresh air and that diru soon will continue and all..i think there were two breaks for about 20 minutes to help the first row girls...and then two breaks for the encores.
but the announcer pissed me off a bit ,..ok it was his job and it was nice to help the girls there,..and through him we knew that diru will come back and all...but it was..nya a bit disturbing.

i also had problems getting fresh air, and i was dried out,..man x.x...i sweated so much that i *must* have lost some weight XD~ (please ;_;). my mouth was..all slimy and salty..blergh X___x!....and i couldn't get water in the breaks...
it freaked me, when i was like 8th row or so,..i couldn't get anything,..and then i was a bit dizzy and thought: ok it's not that bad, try to hold on...but they all pushed so hard just to get some water,..it was even worse than in the gig itself.
So FINALLY i thought of going a bit aside and some nice girls smiled at me and one asked me if i was alright...awwww ;___;. i thought, they were really rabid and all,...but it was more like a family ^^...only some huge guys and tall, strong girls were pushing me all the time (ok they helped their little friends but for me it was hard , too ;_;). once i got an ellbow right on my head - ouch that hurt! (x.x)v.. ..sometimes the ellbows were too close to my head and breasts and i pushed them away,..also i tried to breath calmly and was holding my head high up in the air, and was breathing very controlled so not to break down - i so wanted to see every little bit of the concert. i now got to know that they said somewhere, that the first rows were like 50 degrees,...now you'll understand....what we all went through.
so i went to the right side and they all stood a bit distanced so i could breath and cool down....then i got near to the speakers an let my ear plugs in so that i don't get _this_ deaf xD. i tried to get some water..there were two girls who had bought some soda, but i was afraid to ask if i can have a little bit of water -.-;...
and when i saw a bottle one time, i put my hand to it just to get some water on it and refresh me. but a girl was about to drink from it...and the security guy said something like: that was not nice.
but i was so dried out and nearly dehydrated and all, i didn't want to break down...so i was a bit bitchy to get some water and was a bit rude, when i saw the bottle...i just said: sorry,..and the guy said: ok, then you get some water, too....and he spilled the bottle over my face,..i couldn't drink much but it was a first help, so refreshing! i went wet all over the place XD. (wet also in a place where...*cough* you know what dai-kun is able to do, folks! x3~~~ hahaa, joke..-.- *lol*)
later i got some of the bottles in my own hands and drunk a bit of water and i was alright again,...handed the bottles to others...one time i got three or four bottles and always drunk a bit and then handed them over to the girl next to me..or she handed the bottle over to me and i gave them to another person. that was nice.
and then there was this asiatic/japanese guy who was staring at me or somewhere near..i don't know what it was...but i felt uncomfy X.x he just watched,..didn't smile or anything...just stared, THAT was weird.

i wish it would have lasted enternally ~.~ Pt.2

ok the concert got hotter and hotter and diru were like..yaa getting more confident and pushing the fans: dai and kao holding their guitars in the air, raising their fists and screaming, kyo all freaking out *____* ! that was what i wanted to seeeee actualyyy! :D
then dai always looked in our direction and once he had this cool look on his face like: "i'll eat you..hmm tasty!..."..or..."i can see through you, you dirty little bitches! i know you want me!"
*dies*..i don't know if he looked in my direction but i felt like he was about to eat me with his eyes for some time (i always grinned like hell XD..i was really sooooo happy to see them play and to see dai this close and so i danced to the music and headbanged and was smiling all the time ! *__* i was reallyreallyreally HAPPY! ^_____^).....
and another time (i think for at least two or three times) he licked his lips, looking cool and sexy again (ok he studied that posing, but it looks so cute on him ~___~)...sexy like: rawwwr-tiger! *____*.....(you know those lick-pics, my fellow dai-fans XD) and in the end, when playing the encores he smiled a lot,..not during the songs but when going to the very front of the stage and pushing the fans with screaming and raising fists/guitar.

one time kyo and dai went to our side together and were showing us that they want us to do freak out more! it was so cute x3~....i don't know anymore if they were this close together or if they were smiling,..but when dai turned away and kyo came back for a second time, he was pushing us again, mic in his hand singing/screaming...
(think he wanted us to sing along...but...didn't i tell you?...i don't know if it was because of the plugs in my ear..i didn't hear the fans,..but when i put it off, i could hear that most of the fans couldn't sing along when kyo wanted us to and he himself had stopped the singing for the sing-along-reason. i couldn't either,...*drop*..but i tried to,..i made so many mistakes and that's why i stopped every moment, hesitating to sing more shit....just was moving my lips a bit *lol*...but the english parts and the japanese parts that i was able to sing, i so screamed them in diru's face! xD)

anyways, like i told, kyo was coming to us and then he was singing something and shortly after that (don't know if he was seeing something/someone special but..): HE SO GRINNED LIKE HELL! - that was uber-cute, you little, dirty (LITTLE! xD) brat! awwwww ~______~....ya know..it looked like this gremlin smile (the live footage where he wears his gremlin shirt)...total opposite of the screaming, desperate kyo...*lol*...i'll always keep that in my memories, too! ^.^v

and then i could catch little (little..XD..ya know?.....-_-...yay, jokeeee! *cough*)..little, small kyo rubbing his belly, going downwards near to his...ya know xD. i didn't see it the whole time he was doing it, but my friend said he wasn't(!) opening his pants and doing some dirty, dirty, sexy stuff *lol*.

but for me it was sexy enough! (did i tell you that when i was in the rows in front of the technicians and first saw kyo's belly?..i was like: ooooh sooooo sexy and hot! ~__~ *drool*..that was one of the moments were i really felt fangirlish :D~) i don't remember hearing (i actually didn't hear) kyo doing some MC stuff,....that's a pity if you ask me ;__; i so wanted to hear him saying something in japanese to us (they must think: aw they don't understand us, so let's babble something *like* english xD),.....i only heard "thank you" and "last song" (but he's doing it in japan as well y,y...)....and one time it was like: "raawww! *kakatte(?) koi*!!!! ("come and get some" or so)...but no real MC i think...
i didn't even hear him saying something in german...( i think there could have been something like "danke", but not sure again)...
(but he can do it!...at least: eins, zwei, drei, vier - geist, seele, wille zelle *drop* ^^). i'm not sure really, but once he said something like.."blahblah germany.."...or.."...berlin".... like i said, i'm not really sure, but it was something with *german* (his jengrish is so ..*lol*).

but for the second encore or what it was,..there was someone coming back, talking in the mic...like.."blahblah..berlin?/fans..dir en grey" (uh fkk, i can't remember a thing ;__;...)....but i was like: huuuh? was this a japanese guy from the staff (perhaps the one who wanted to film us? yes? ^^;) or another diru? (i couldn't see who was speaking)....
and i was totally confused about who was speaking to us. and i thought: OMFG! was it dai or kao or toto perhaps?..noo can't be.. (i think they weren't but...now that i'm thinking about it and can't remember everything rightly, it totally freaks me ;_;).

ok, now i remember dai,..for one song he stood with his back to the audience and was taking his guitar over his head, behind his neck and was playing it blind! ~_________~..like *plingblingdunndunndunn* (something funky xD) that was so awesome! *_____* i <3 him for that, it also is branded in my memories!!!! thank you dai-kuuuun! *hearts* <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3. oh and when doing *byoshin* and *child prey*...this "to slay" and "ohooohhooooh!!!"...he backs the vocals,...and it was like in the dvd's..doing this wide open mouth, and looking all evil and forcing himself to look hard and tough! sooooooooooo sweeeeet! *___* (i <3 his mouth when he's doing it <3<3<3<3<3<3 ~-~, aww his lips!!!!! did i tell you about his gorgeous looking lips?..especially when he was either singing or having it closed or licking them...or doing a cute *schnute* (which is so rare, i think he didn't do it at the concert v,v).....awhaaawww ;_____; kiss me, dai! <3)
ah, now that i mentioned *byoshin* and *childprey*, these were those songs were all the fans freaked out. and me and all the other fans were screaming their hearts out! ;__; it was such a nice feeling! i was headbanging, screaming "oohhhhohhohoooohh...child prey, child prey...!!!! blah" xD. it was great! and there was the "spark and spark" thing from *increase blue*,..it was also this great, yeah and the *jesus christ R'n'R* thing, ne? uwaaaah! *screamo* (>.<)\m/

but what made me sad was, that they didn't make this gig special for us..i don't talk of fanservice anymore...(i hope the french guys are telling us, how it was at their gig, later on (or i'll go and see for myself ....<.< yeah, of course)...and what they played there. i don't wanna imagine if they would play...*...*...;___;....).
aww, with special i mean, an old song (hey that *singing for diru* totally went down under xD. sometimes i was not sure, but heard some people singing, and later the people next to me started *garden's* refrain..but no one joined them *lol* sad, but true xDDD...)... yes an old..song ;___;...like...*unknown... despair...a lost* or...i soooo wanted to hear *jessica* and all freak out with it! ._.v...and even *mushi* live would have been a big dream of mine...but nooo, they only play new stuff, ..like: "oh the *gaijins* at least like our new songs, we will play them till they puke..nono, we don't like our old songs no longer....only new songs are good!" (and they played them like...average..v,v..and looking all fed up and pissed and not confident and...they don't look like they would enjoy playing them at least for us if not for themselves! jesus christ!)
oh now that i mention jesus: they played jesus christ R'n'R really _this_ good! that was fkkn cooool! really! ^-^ aawww and all the nice ballad types of WTD. .....were so neat! *-*
(btw, after the concert another guy, one from here i guess, was filming, too...he also did it in front of the concert hall...wonder what that was for....anyways..he threw the fkkn setlist into the audience! ;__; but ..like always: in the middle.. =__= *gnarf*!)

oh i forgot that in the end i was like third, second row..but just right, under the speakers....it was hella loud! (so for the rest of the gig i tried to keep the plugs in my ear)...and there was this cute girl always turning around and when i smiled this big about dai, she also smiled at me this big! awwww ^____^!
and i saw dai,..a hundred times..looking cool, sexy,...freakin out, rockin'...all that...this man is soooooo....LOVE! <3.... aww and for some of the ballads he had this nice accoustic guitar! <3<3<3<3<3 black and with a shiny marbled line around the body of it. TEH LUV!
i also caught kyo a few times..but shin, kao and toto were very rare to be seen..;_;. my friend said, in the end when only little ones were in front of her, she could see everything..even dai ;_;. shit xD chosen wrong side. nyaaaaa!....

so coming to the final (did they play that?..ewww...my head is like a (bad) filter(?)...no i don't think so...but machi and saku for sure..or? ..eheheheeeheh! ^^"). yeah, when kyo said: "last song!"...i was like: "oooh noooo! this couldn't be!"....i always felt like the gig beeing looooong! (but that was because of the many breaks), but then it was like..."no! it was not enough! play moreeeeee!!!!"....at least it was one and a half hour netto.
ok, they played and waived their hands, raising fists again, screaming and dai was smiling a lot now, like i said. kyo too, i think.
but it was like: tooo short!...and then....coming back again with their towels on their heads...throwing water bottles and kyo spitting water on the fans (i think i *catched* some drops, but i'm not sure again, because the security spread water, too) and dai spreading water out of the bottle (or was it that water i caught? x3~ yummy!..i don't remember..i can only hope that it was *HIS* water..or at least kyo's..).

then dai and kao (didn't see toto though) threw their pics into the audience. kao's even went upstairs to the balcony-thingie! and dai's waterbottle went faaaar far away..like..next to the technicians place again..(you can see that in *masters of monsters* gig...^^).
and dai smiled a lot! (do i say it too often?...waaah whatever! i don't care! x3...as long as he smiled!)... and he threw his pics..i tried to catch them but i think he didn't threw them in our direction. i always looked for them in the air and so i missed to watch dai-kun, what a pity XD!...at least i _tried_ to get some of his stuff,..but i suggest that i was too close to the stage and too far right to get something (and too small v,v...).
the last thing dai did, was throwing his towel....;_____;! he even threw it in my direction,..but a girl in the first row..more to the right, got it...T_____T! *sniff* [troste mich to-chan!]

and i saw kyo waving or throwing his towel, i think. and i saw shinya throwing his sticks (but only for a short time)...my friend said, shin was shortly smiling veeeryyy, very sweet when throwing his things and waving to the fans. aww, i so wanted to have dai's towel or pic or bottle, kyo's towel or bottle OR shin's stick! ;_; i didn't expect to get something of kao or toto...but anyways they didn't come to the right side either (...whyyy?...why didn't they change sides for just ONE TIME?!..nya...).
so they went off stage and were never be seen again T_______________________________________________T!....*sniffsniff*

this was teh coolest shit i have ever experienced! the best concert right until now! ( i mean d'espairs was even _THIS_ great! ;_;..what should i say about diru then?..)...

i stayed there in first row and thought some security guys would bring some water again, but they didn't <.<.... then the japanese guy from before stared at me again, he was still in the same place like before (ok i'm paranoid, don't mind XD!). and the japanese guy from diru's filmteam was filming fans of first row, but i don't know if i'm on it...he didn't went this far right, i think.
and all the fans were screaming about it...and one security guy was like: "why are you screaming again? hold yourselves together, concert's over...."...
and the girls were like: "they're filming us!!!" *squeeee* and then the security man: "oh..ok. -.-; *drop*...", xD~. and as i said, the guy throwing the setlist and all.....*sniff again*.

ok, i was searching for my friend on toto's side, but didn't see her..then i went to the meeting point - girls toilet xD. and we FINALly met and i hugged her like crazy and was like: "awwwww this was so great!!!!" *squee* (i didn't cry..i really thought i would cry if i see diru..or at least when i _had_ seen them..but i didn't.)
she said: "eww you're all wet."...and i was like: "yes..but don't panic, it's only water!" *gg and eg*... i wrung out my shirt like *splashsplash+dropdrop*...and then we went to the toilet and drank some water there (not the toilet water! ;D....hey,...i don't recognize when i'm not funny, sorry xD...i'll stop those 'jokes'). then i got my friends bag and she went to get her camera (didn't take much pics..but this "DIR EN GREY 19.00" on the top of the building was gorgeous! :3~).
then we met at the taxistand outside and went home all fkkd up x3~. my new shoes (the red converse things dai had for kasumi..only in a cheap version ^^v)..were..all dirty and wet and..the buttons i put on were a bit...not good anymore *lol*..but it was worth it! YAY! x3~~~~~~~

now my back hurts, i'm a bit sunburnt and my eyes hurt from typing this report. =..=.....yeah, hope you had fun reading this, and i'm really sorry that i don't have a setlist...i would have wished to get it, but ask someone else about it, ne? plus i'm sorry about not telling so much about toto and kao and shin...but i really didn't see much. i only know that kao and shin were like...very controlled and toto like..very sexy and pissed/cool or whatever he wanted to say us with this posing there in the back (but his hair looks great, i think *___*!).
so i hope the 30 minutes at rock im park will be this great, too...or even greater!!!! ^o^v
report follows soon, stay tuned! O-oV

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YAY FOR DIRU!!! YOU TREATED ME VERY TENDERLY AT MY *FIRST TIME*...x3~ AWWWW! THANKS! HI FIVE @ 'hi five'! (and dai: i <3 you even more now! <3<3<3<3<3<3 TEH REAL LOVE! T,T)...*moan*....ouuuuu, you dirty, dirty......aahhhh! - oh wait..<.<...that..was not for you guys...*lol*...! -eh?...heeeey, dreeeaaams! wait for meeeee! *waves*....i'm coming soooon! *hg*

ja, neeee?! baibai! :3~

Thank you Hitsujiga!

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